Contemplating

Blogging lately has been rather therapeutic for me. It helps me unwind after a long day (or short day in my current case), but just now I was struck by this feeling of "What am I doing in China?" I'm however many thousands of miles away from home, in an unknown city in China, doing some internship that was set up by "sketch" means, and I guess there was just a moment of feeling lost. What am I doing here?

But as I had journal-ed last night during my devotions, I am clearly here for a reason. The Lord brought me here and has guided me every step of the way. I simply do not have enough faith to trust Him sometimes, and that is an issue. Following the compass seems easy sometimes compared to trusting it. To follow is almost mindless at times, but to trust the compass and not doubt where it's pointing is almost twice as difficult. Granted, following and going through with where the Lord leads you is also tough, but the more I think about it, the more I realize how immature my faith really is, and that I'm still in those primary stages of walking by faith.

I'm sure we all have those moments, moments where we doubt no matter how mature we are; it is simply a matter of how we handle that moment of doubt and where we go from there.