Over-reacting

It is amazing how a bad night's rest, wacky hormones and an e-mail can cause an overall meltdown, and I apologize for the previous post.  I think I definitely over reacted.  Having calmed down significantly now, not to say that I'm not still angry or irked, I am no longer a pile of ranging hormones.  I am thinking straight.

However, there are 2 things on my mind.  On the one hand, now that I am no longer seeing red everywhere, I have figured out a way to work with the system, trying to find a loophole here or two and will hopefully find a way to work it out with the idiotic bureaucracy.  On the other hand though, a part of me is itching for a fight.  I am tired of always caving into this system and working from within it.  I want to fight it, but there might be too much at stake to do so.  I simply have too much to lose.  However, is it worth it?  In my heart, I feel it is a matter of principle, I want to regrow my backbone and stop bending over backwards at their every whim.  But practically speaking, reality says that I need to work with them, or I will only bring all the wrath on my head.  It is stupid, and perhaps the future students will benefit, but in the short term, I will be the only one to suffer.

I'm still debating between the options, and I think I have to be realistic.  However, even with realism, it doesn't mean I have to lose my ideology as well.  Perhaps I can be a double agent in this matter and play both sides.  If they're going to be sneaky behind my back, why shouldn't I?  It's a bureaucratic game after all, is it not?  It's only fair that I deal a few more punches before I go.