Last day on the job

It is startling how 10 months have gone by so quickly.  Granted, it was no blink of an eye, but it was much faster than I would have ever thought it could be.  As I sit here in a borrowed desk for the last time at the firm, I am feeling reflective, pensive even.

I still recall "finding" this firm through my 关系, my neighbor's cousin's contact, yes, it's actually rather distant, and I was apprehensive the first day.  In fact, I had arrived a full 30 minutes early (I start at 9:00, but arrived at 8:30) to the firm.  As I twiddled my thumbs in the waiting area, I remember growing more nervous by the moment as to why my boss had yet to show up.  He was a good 15 minutes late after 9:00 p.m., so I had sat in the office for 45 minutes, nervous that he had forgotten about my arrival.  However, as he hobbled in on crutches from his fall in the snow, somehow deep down inside I had breathed a sigh of relief.  I was still nervous granted, but it was a relief to know I hadn't been forgotten.  As my poor boss hobbled on crutches down the hallway, introducing me to each and every lawyer in the firm, I knew that he was a sincere person and that my stay here would be a pleasant one. 

Now, it all feels a little bittersweet.  Of course, I am happy to be leaving the constantly smoke-filled environment, and will enjoy not having to lug my laptop all the way to the firm everyday, but I will miss the people.  They are all very sweet.  Unfortunately, I guess my own personal timing is a little off, because my last day here, and everyone is either at court or out of town on a case.  It feels as if I will leave as quietly as I had come, and perhaps that will make it appropriate.  I am apprehensive of Amy's arrival to the firm, namely because no one is here today.  The one person who she could've interviewed is off delivering cases, but he is said to return by the afternoon.  Who knows?  I suppose it's all just nerves.  I don't want to come off as insincere, but it's really out of my control.  All I guess I can say is I tried, and place the blame on myself. It was me who picked an inopportune time, not her or anyone else.  Oh well, 4 months have finally come to an end, and all I can say is that I'm glad it's over.  I learned a lot, not from actual work, but more from my interaction with the people at our firm.  I observed a lot, asked a lot of questions, and found out things by eavesdropping. Haha.  They are a boisterous but warm-hearted bunch.  I will miss them for sure.